Today is Septembe 14th. My last Blog Post was clear back in May, A pet scan was done and I was told that my cancer has doubled in size even after 6 weeks of radaition to my sturnum,  they also found  more Cancer in the Lymph nodes. I was given the option to go on a tough 18 month round of Chemotherpy to srink the tomers or just let things progress because at this point nothing has even touched this Beast.  This was a very tough decission because they also talk to you about quality of life. I have had a constant positive warm feeling  and knew with in a week that I was going to go ahead with the treatment. I have so much to look forward to in my life to just give up :). I was told that there was a new drug that had just gotten cleared from the FDA, it mixed with a drug called Taxoteer, Herception, Purgetta. All mixed together was supose to have a really high rate of slowing the cancer way down. I had my first dose Friday Aug 24, it took 6 hours and I did pretty good until Sunday night my daughter Holly's 30th birthday. I didn't lead on just how sick I was, but felt like I had food Poisoning and was not getting relief. Next the bone pains set in and by wednesday I knew something wasn't right so I called my Dr. and he got me into the office and started asking what symptoms i was feeling. I told him I was also having a lot of pain on my right side, very sharp pains. I was sent home with some meds for ulcers but wasn't getting any better so by Saturday I was so sick and in so much pain I had Larry take me to the hospital. I was realsed 2 hours later saying that my white count was up and no fever. I was so confused. I went back to the doctor that next week with more pain and did an ultrasound and found that my liver was inflamed so off to the hospital! More tests came back postive for 6 ulcers and a non functioning Gallbladder. i was quickly rushed to surgery to have my gallbladder removed. The surgery went well and i spent another 4 days on the hopsital recovering. I do not consider this a setback in my life, but rather a blessing. I'm so thaqnkful to my Father in Heaven for blessing me with a wonderful family and such amazing friends. How could I not be happy? :) It would be so easy to look at my life in the wrong way, to question all that is happening to me. But I cant, The Savior has suffered far greater than I and for that example I am greatful. My chemo will continue and i will stay strong knowing that my Father in Heaven Loves me, and that the savior is always by my side. :)

Hugs, Lisa

I have decided that I am not so good at doing this blog thing ...I can't spell, think or write how in the world can I keep this blog interesting and funny when most of what I have to say are things that have gone on when I have been sick. I spent 5 days in the hospital my first hospital stay sense I have had Cancer I am not going back LOL....I am recovering slowly. I had Easter here at my house I made a really cute center piece for my table, had the whole family come over with yummy food I really missed my sister in laws rolls, I almost cried when I found out she wasn't making them oh!! well. Life is changing here at the Lires house yes I feel a big change coming on.I will keep you posted if something big happens. I feel that in this time of my life although I have Cancer I have more blessings than I have ever dreamed possible ...

well today was a not so productive day. Good news though the Judge in our wrongful foreclosure case against City Mortgage is being heard on Thursday Which is really good news for us as we were wrongfully foreclosed on clear back in May of last year "way to go Larry."

'My hubby is acting as his own council which I might add is very hard, Good luck on Thursday honey. Tim and Jade moved out of the basement last weekend. I miss the little feet of T.J running around down stairs and sweet little Emery and his smile and of coarse Tim and Jade love them SO much, they are comfy in there town home so happy for them. it's late again but not like last night 11:10 think I will cut this short around 11:30. I was not my self today ache and really tired, Larry took me to eat Chili Verdi at La Puenta to boost my spirit's believe me this has been my favorite for year's not this particular restaurant but one like it in American Fork we shared it and then went to Costco ...We were talking about what we wanted to do for our 20th which turned out to be our 19th my mistake BTW. I said what if I am not around in a year.. I am getting another pet scan in mid May and I guess we will see what it reads and go from there. We got home around 8 and Missy was here putting the very hard puzzle together that had been sitting there for at least 3 weeks yah!! puzzle time I guess i just needed a little motivation Thanks Missy :).I just looked out side and for the first time this winter we got a beautiful blanket of fresh snow so clam so white and I love it what a wonderful way to end the day Hugs Lisa

Today is Sunday Feb 26 2012, I have had Breast Cancer sense Jan of 09, I found out 2 weeks before Christmas that I have Metastatic Breast Cancer stage 4 Ha. They had told me I was in remission in July, Well now I fit in that category of the 10% whose Cancer comes back and is considered incurable. I finished 5 week's of Radiation to the Sternum and left clavicle area. 2 week's ago, my treatment includes Herceptin for Her2 Breast Cancer and Exgeva for strengthening the bones. I will be on these treatment's for the rest of my life... they are not traditional "Chemo" been there done that back in 09, might have to do it again, they still have side effect's everyone that is not doing these drug's "Poison" would like to tell you they don't make you sick, Well I do get sick every time., Don't ask me why but I believe everyone is different how there body is going to handle these meds. How do I feel about this at this stage of my life? I feel blessed. I am 50 I have 7 children, yes you heard that right 7, most of which are grown or on there own or married. I have 4 grand children, A Yours mine an ours kind of family. I have had the best years of my life just being a mother, wife and friend... I am a Mormon and belong to the church of Jesus Christ of Later Day Saint's... I am blessed beyond measure and am thankful everyday of my life. This is my first posting for this blog it's Sunday and it's late almost midnight and I am not at all tired this has been going on for some time, gone are the day's that I could fall into bed and be asleep in what seemed like minute's, insomnia is not my friend, I asked Larry, he is my hubby and the love of my life just thinking about him brings tear's to my eye's. I am having a hard time typing now anyway I asked him to stay up while I compose this my first post. Is it a Journal? Well maybe. I can see his light still on in his office, he he Today was a good day I am feeling better the effect's of the Radiation are warring off the burns on my chest and clavicle are healing thanks to my Buff’s kid's giving me weekly aloe Vera plant's. I am starting to feel a little more like my old self. My Oncologist changed my treatments to once a month happy day, my next treatment is Thursday, I will miss the techs at the hospital who did the treatment's they made going and doing these treatment's bearable and there are my sweet and wonderful support group my dearest friend's with me at every treatment and there with me every step of the way I LOVE YOU. Thank you for always being there for me. It is late I will write more tomorrow ..

Hug’s Lisa J